I was made for such a time as this

Three weeks after the fast, we are still in our feelings. I still get irritated when I compare myself to others or when someone mentions work.

But I am now better than I was this morning when I woke up.

I read my bible

I prayed

I was grateful

I acknowledged where I am right now

I am not happy with God, but I am grateful.

I decided today that I will be grateful for the next 21 days. 

When all I want to do is go into my feelings and be angry, frustrated and pissed, I will instead be grateful and progress towards discipline.

I am no longer who I used to be.

I am a different person.

I am moving forward.

God has a plan for me, and I will get there.

He would not give me a test I could not overcome.

I am overcoming this cycle of ungratefulness and comparison.

I am choosing not to turn my blessing into a curse.

I am choosing to see God's grace in everything that concerns me.

I will continue to build my skills towards my goals.

Goodnight G...

Ah...I am watching "It's Okay to Not Be Okay" (Episode 7)

Gang-tae remembered his mom actually cared about him. He had just lost perspective. He always remembered his mom leaving him all alone and only taking care of his autistic brother, but as he got better and healed emotionally. He began to remember the real truth.

Right now, in your hurt, G, you have lost perspective.

God has got you.

Remember, well, God always had you.

Trust Him

Obey Him

Abide in Him

Follow Him

Let go and let Him