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Love in the Valley

Updated: Apr 4


Letting go of the things I can't control


Trusting you are in control


Not seeing your hand


But...hoping you have gone ahead of me


Trusting you are providing


Believing you are aware


But nothing points to you in this situation


Maybe I am not looking enough


My hope is failing

My faith is fading


Everything points to your absence


I see you in her life

You just gave him that


But my hands feel dry

my hands are dry


I am holding on to what you said


You said I am good

You said you are good


This situation is bad


I wish you were enough

I want you to be enough


But it is hard to be content in this lack


I am in the valley


I keep walking towards the shore


I see you

I know you are here

I get it

But... I am losing my mind


How do I believe in what I Know?


How do I action this fact?



Now you are smiling

Lying on the rock

Watching me


Why do I only ever notice you after all my energy is gone?


You were right there

You are right there


You never left


Lol


Actually, you went ahead of me


Waiting for me to see you

To spot you


*but this is not where is waldo*


Patiently waiting for me

To want you

To seek you

To see you

To desire your presence


Lool you are pettily humble, you know


You weirdly fade into the background

Only noticeable when searched for

Peacefully keeping a lookout


I love you Jireh


Why don't you ever leave?

Why don't you ever get frustrated?

Didn't you get tired of waiting?

Didn't you get pissed off when I walked away?


Lol


Now you are standing up and walking towards me

The roasted fish smells good


lol


How long did you wait?


This might be the best Mackerel ever


I start telling you about my journey

Trying to prove the reasons why

Hoping you get it

Guilt washes over me

Tears start flowing

I drop Nemo and stand to leave again


You hold me back

With the biggest hug


You hand me the living water

I drink with tears in my eyes


You make a shed out of the rocks

A place for me to lay my head in the valley


I lie down with my burdened heart


Holding on to you, Abba


How are you the only one able to satisfy me?


Weeks pass and I am not ready to leave

There you are

Still with me

Keeping me company


I try to fade you out like before


But you are like a beautiful gracious flower

Now that you have caught my eye

And I have experienced your beauty

Ignorance is Hell


We went for a walk today


Striding along

gisting

gossiping

laughing

learning

crying

smiling

sleeping

running

hiding

I attempt to leave you again

But this time I keep finding my fingers interlinked with yours

I long to go everywhere with you


I have fallen in love with you


I have gotten to know you

And I am mesmerised


You have my heart

What do I do now

I want to shout it out

At the top of my lungs

From the mountain top

To the lowest valleys


I have given you my heart


I thought love was like a thief in the night

Taking away a part of me

I was not ready to give


But I kept opening up to you

And...you kept waiting on me

I took my time

You helped

Not rushing me


I want to share you with the world

But also keep you to myself


I fell in love with Jireh

He waited on me

Drowning my fears in perfect love


What kind of love is this?


Lol... it's called agape


I am flabbergasted


He loved me first


From the mountain to valleys

From the valleys to mountains

And the path in between

I am overwhelmed


I love you


#staygraced

#begraced














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