This place is freaking me out Odd As it is my most frequent spot Right here My favourite location Here Right here Where my heart wonders My hearts accelerates My emotions run wild You would think I would be used to it by now But I am not This place is the hot spot The place where all my major and minor decisions are made The place where I fret and fly to The place I relax in Just before the uncomfortable sets in The good and bad place Right here Not there But here Not where I

Hey Eve, It has been a while I think I have been running away from you But also not really So lol Ah ...by the way I made it to that place, I always spoke about You know The place I always said; would be great to get to The place I hoped I will get to but never really believed I would It is great by the way Lol I wish I could say it was all my hard work but to be honest He did all the heavy lifting All I did was cry Nag Whine Play Cry Dream Procrastinate But I feel different

I can't wait to see You I hope you are all I imagined I hope you are all and more I hope I don't lose myself I hope you don't lose you I hope you are all and more I hope we unfold I hope you were created for me I hope you are all and more I hope you are real I hope you are seen I hope you are Open I hope you are Scared I hope you are all and more I hope you get it I hope you bring it I hope you listen I hope you have it all I hope you are all and more I hope we get over it I

* So if God is for me Who can be against me If no one knows me But His heart adores me Then I am safe I am loved And I am healed * I don't feel it I am still lost I am still scared I don't know my next I don't know where I am right But I trust that you do With nothing but this sunflower seed I trust You have got me I am full of tears But I am safe I am loved And I am healed I am heartbroken I will cause more hurt I will cause more pain I will cause more hate But if no one kno

Werey they say is repeating the same nonsense over and over again but expecting a different result. Not there yet But we move Not arrived yet But we move Forgot my phone But we move Stained my shoes on the way out But we move Got into an argument But we move There is traffic on the highway But we move Should have worn a different top But we move I shouldn't have said that But we move Someone just cut me off But we move I shouldn't have watched that But we move I fumbled again

You should just wait "Instead of trying in your own strength" Just wait. I don't know the answer either I don't know the next step I don't know who comes next I don't know what comes next I am tired of being afraid I am tired of being stuck I tired of blaming them I tired of hating myself So I am just going to wait I am not going to try and fix you I am not going to try and make you feel better But I won't leave you either Weird right I learnt it from Abba He has a weird habi

I am choosing to believe the struggle is a lesson I am choosing to learn from it I am choosing to find the positives I am choosing to quit focusing on the past I am choosing to let go of the negatives. I choose to enjoy being You. You! Just as you are Right now Quirks and all Lol Because the werey The serenren And the tear flakes All make up the mysteriously complex masterpiece That you are That is you Think of how far you have come How lost you were Take in all in Because ev

Esther the GOAT Is finding her way back to you Dealing with the same issues Where is the time going? And why are we not moving with it Different age, Different year, Same shit We both decided to let go, But it is tough We realized we had put You in the backburner We got lost in the demi-god's form of love But you see, Only You, God, can satisfy Not people or success But we keep thirsting Because we abandoned the living water for a counterfeit Abba, help us trust and hold on

I am not enough I can not do this without you I do not know what I am doing Like a child I do not know my left from my right The good from the wrong My yes from my no Am I to go Or am I to stay Sometimes I hear you As clear as day But most times It is just foggy This time, it is a feeling But that is not enough Why not just tell me what to do Why is it not made plain Why can I not see it from afar Why do we only see in part Why the options Why the decisions Why the indecision

Sun is up The hamster is on the wheel Take a deep breath Don't be overwhelmed Break it down Question it Write it down Ask the why Ask the when Ask the "how" Is it true Is it a feeling Is it a lie Abba help! I don't want to be overwhelmed Give me peace I am about to lose it Take control I am breathing I am living I am thinking I do not "got" this lol I maybe can... "get" this Help me get this, lol Thank you for the day Wake up each day with appreciation Before any complaint or

So Hannah Montana hid her true identity with a blonde wig lol How? If anyone found out, she would beg and make them promise not to tell That's crazy right What if all our alter ego's were taken away with just one hand movement The pain, the fear The woulda, shoulda, coulda The regrets and joys Happiness and accomplishments The escapes that evolved into prisons The shame, guilt and glory And when we got home we could just take it all off and be a different person. How crazy wo

*inhale* *exhale* *inhale* Exhale* Well, this is different I am not living from my pain From my misdeeds From my mistakes From my guilt From my remorse My feelings I have found a new meaning in life Living from a new realisation That I am actually sorted That my father has got me So I can be silly And ask for the unnecessary things Rant and tell Him what is on my mind Get angry when I don't understand While also holding on to Him as he walks me down the aisle Without the fear

What are your desires... What are your wants... What are your needs... Why do you want them... How do you want them... When do you want them... Is it too small to be a prayer or Too big to handle Take a deep breath! Calm down! Take your time It is okay to be confused It is okay to be lost Sometimes it is easier to stand still than move at all Especially when indecision drowns you Take your time It is okay to start over A clean slate Relearning how to roll over Then scooting C

Letting go of the things I can't control Trusting you are in control Not seeing your hand But...hoping you have gone ahead of me Trusting you are providing Believing you are aware But nothing points to you in this situation Maybe I am not looking enough My hope is failing My faith is fading Everything points to your absence I see you in her life You just gave him that But my hands feel dry my hands are dry I am holding on to what you said You said I am good You said you are g

Clearing the fog is hard work You are confused Your vision is blurred Your memory is hazy Your emotions are high Your feelings are uncontrollable Frustrated at your unspoken expectations Having to face the denied vanity You are holding on to nothing Yet, I kept on walking It did not make sense A step at a time A breath in and out Afraid Scarred Elated Bored Happy Seconds of peace Minutes of worry Hours of bondage Still, I kept moving with my hands out Hoping not to hit anyth

There was once a girl who had a lustful take on life There was another girl who didn't believe she was beautiful There was once a girl who was not articulate There was another girl who was indisciplined The thought of a world after the day was a crazy myth She only saw past her nose and nothing more She lived in the bathroom and won in the bedroom She gradually found herself lost at the sea There she was... ... in the storm And she did nothing, but float Waking and sleeping T

Me in another Dimension I am definitely a nudist Lol, so I will probably not be Yoruba Because the ass whopping will be across endless dimensions I have amnesia I forget the hurt I lose myself in the music I hate the pain But love the afterthought I am a fish, one of the Ernie brothers High as hell all the time Because I live here And y'all are crazy as hell I am also Naomi When shit hits the fan and life throws dodge balls at me I pack my load and go back home It is not me,